Thursday, July 16, 2015

One Direction OTRA Concert

Song of the Post: Clouds
     artist: One Direction
     album: FOUR



(I can't find the audio sorry!)

Salutations fellow internet people!
So recently I was FINALLY able to go to a One Direction concert! It was AMAZAYN ;) I'll see myself out the door now... I went with a friend, and I was so excited I shook like a Chihuahua ✌ It was also one of the few times I felt really pretty **intense blushing**
On the way to the venue, there were a ton of trucks, vans, and SUVs full of groups of people jamming out to 1D.... My car included☺ The stadium my concert was at was absolutely breathtaking. I was enthralled by how clean and very modern the stadium was in terms of its structure. What kind of bugged me were the handful of people I saw who wore other band merch to a 1D concert. I understand that you really like that other band, but it's a bit disrespectful to wear that at a concert for someone else. Aren't you there to support them?!? But....whatever. That's just my personal opinion.

I don't know if it's just me or if anybody else does this, but I'm always torn between fully enjoying myself at the concert and wanting to record every second of it. I want to jump around and chant along to the songs, but I also want to try to stay as still as possible so that my video isn't shaky and blurry. I'm trying to make it a goal for myself to just leave my camera at home and if I want to see videos, I'll just check social media for them and then enjoy the concert while I'm there!

The song they opened with was Clouds ☁ and I kid you not....it is my favorite song on the whole album. (Please say that with claps inbetween each word to emphasize my passion for this song) The day it was leaked on tumblr, I just raised both hands to the air because I praised the lord for blessing the world with this song. It sounds like a Christian Rock song o_O Seeing the crotch grabs, the water spits, the Niam foot shuffle things, the Niall jump, Niall doing his Irish dance, Harry's gold boots, Liam break dancing, Louis leaving for a pee break, Niall alone on stage so he called it the "Niall Tour," etc. live....just incredible. All the feels...all of them. The excitement and joy flowing from everyone was just so infectious, and when the stadium did the phone thing where they turn on the flashlight setting and wave it around like twinkling lights I was just just so enchanting.
The stage with the fireworks and the laser lights and the streamers........ughhh just so mesmerizing. I don't think people understand how appreciative and happy these kinds of things make me. If I could sum up my whole experience there → heart eyes emoji. From the time the lights finally dim down and you think to yourself *I've been waiting for this moment for a LONG time*, to the end when you break down in tears because you don't want this moment to end, words cannot describe how grateful I am to be able to experience one of their concerts in person. 

Best. Night. Ever.

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<3 The Little Fangirl

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

Back to being a "Debbie Downer"

Song of the Post: Divorce and the American South
     artist: Aaron West and the Roaring Twenties
     album: We Don't Have Each Other




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DISCLAIMER: This is a depressing and sad post so you don't have to read this if you don't want to. I'm just venting out and expressing my opinion.

Salutations fellow internet people!
WOOO HOORAY FOR UNSCHEDULED POSTING! **please note the sarcasm before it gets awkward** It's funny because I have a whole bunch of mini posts that I type in the notes in my phone because I always forget to actually write them on my blog so HERE IT IS!

S/N (that means 'side note') Check out the album, We Don't Have Each Other, by Aaron West and the Roaring Twenties ☺ His songs may be super depressing, but they are AMAZING!

Anywho...lately, I've been feeling really down. Hopeless, crushed, and defeated to be a little more specific ☹ I've been staying up until 2 am everyday. It's not that I don't want to fall asleep, it's that I can't fall asleep. I look in the mirror and hate who I am, so I binge eat. Soon enough, I realize what I'm doing so I starve myself. Curse the people who can effortlessly pull off anything. I'm not getting anything done. I'm not being productive. I'm obsessing over friends who most likely don't care for me. I try too hard to talk to people, but because of that it seems like I'm arrogant and awkward when attempting to socialize so I just stop talking in general. I hold myself back from so many things in fear of judgement, not only from others but also from myself. I delete and throw away projects that seem dumb after finishing them because I feel like I've failed. It's like I get so close, yet I manage to screw myself over and mess up my whole opportunity. My parents freak out when they see the tiniest of scratches on me (because I scar easily) so they automatically assume I went back to my old ways and think I'm some sort of suicidal mess. (That's their opinion, not mine) I'm sick of my mood swings and I'm sick of who I am.
Why do I even bother trying?

I'm so sorry that most of my posts are really sad and depressing, but that's just...well...me. This is my life and I'm choosing to use this blog as a way to vent. I'm open to any advice from anyone who is out there.
Not gonna lie, it would be nice to look back and see how I transitioned from the sad being that I am now to a happy and healthy person sometime in the future. But who knows what my future is going to be like? I'm not going to force myself to be happy on my own blog I already do that in real life.

Feel free to leave any comments or suggestions below!

<3 The Little Fangirl