One Direction OTRA Concert

Song of the Post: Clouds
     artist: One Direction
     album: FOUR

(I can't find the audio sorry!)

Salutations fellow internet people!
So recently I was FINALLY able to go to a One Direction concert! It was AMAZAYN ;) I'll see myself out the door now... I went with a friend, and I was so excited I shook like a Chihuahua ✌ It was also one of the few times I felt really pretty **intense blushing**
On the way to the venue, there were a ton of trucks, vans, and SUVs full of groups of people jamming out to 1D.... My car included☺ The stadium my concert was at was absolutely breathtaking. I was enthralled by how clean and very modern the stadium was in terms of its structure. What kind of bugged me were the handful of people I saw who wore other band merch to a 1D concert. I understand that you really like that other band, but it's a bit disrespectful to wear that at a concert for someone else. Aren't you there to support them?!? But....whatever. That's just my personal opinion.

I don't know if it's just me or if anybody else does this, but I'm always torn between fully enjoying myself at the concert and wanting to record every second of it. I want to jump around and chant along to the songs, but I also want to try to stay as still as possible so that my video isn't shaky and blurry. I'm trying to make it a goal for myself to just leave my camera at home and if I want to see videos, I'll just check social media for them and then enjoy the concert while I'm there!

The song they opened with was Clouds ☁ and I kid you not....it is my favorite song on the whole album. (Please say that with claps inbetween each word to emphasize my passion for this song) The day it was leaked on tumblr, I just raised both hands to the air because I praised the lord for blessing the world with this song. It sounds like a Christian Rock song o_O Seeing the crotch grabs, the water spits, the Niam foot shuffle things, the Niall jump, Niall doing his Irish dance, Harry's gold boots, Liam break dancing, Louis leaving for a pee break, Niall alone on stage so he called it the "Niall Tour," etc. live....just incredible. All the feels...all of them. The excitement and joy flowing from everyone was just so infectious, and when the stadium did the phone thing where they turn on the flashlight setting and wave it around like twinkling lights I was just just so enchanting.

The stage with the fireworks and the laser lights and the streamers........ughhh just so mesmerizing. I don't think people understand how appreciative and happy these kinds of things make me. If I could sum up my whole experience there → heart eyes emoji. From the time the lights finally dim down and you think to yourself *I've been waiting for this moment for a LONG time*, to the end when you break down in tears because you don't want this moment to end, words cannot describe how grateful I am to be able to experience one of their concerts in person. 

Best. Night. Ever.

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<3 The Little Fangirl

Multiple Crushes Pt.2

Song of the Post: Bring Me To Life
     artist: Evanescence
     album: Fallen

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Salutations fellow internet people!
So....I have more than one crush currently (Two to be exact). One I "met" in religious class and one I'm sorta friends with, but BOTH I have stalked on pretty much every social media platform. It sounds creepy, but honestly, who HASN'T stalked their crush online AT LEAST once. Those who deny are liars. Because I'm a turnip and can't properly socialize with human beings, I've had pretty bad first impressions with both of these gentlemen. (This is part 2)
So the guy that I'm sorta friends with (let's call him Ryan) is someone who always catches me at the wrong times. It all started when I was sleeping over a friend's house. It was me, Ryan, 4 other girls, and 4 other guys. It was my first time meeting Ryan and 3 others. When Ryan arrived I was baffled. Typical punk rock kid, always wore a beanie, and what really got me was that he had an accent. A FREAKIN ACCENT. He has one of those really innocent-looking faces and his teeth are perfect. The need to run my fingers through his curly hair was engulfing me. I was the only one to figure out what kind of accent he had out of everyone at the house (I take pride in that). Skip forward to later that night when were eating pizza for dinner, a guy friend and I were joking around and started singing "After Ever After" by Paint. Ryan interrupted our jam session, kind of shocked that I knew that song word for word. I could tell he was excited and impressed that I did and proceeded to sing along with us. Obviously we annoyed, yet entertained everyone at the table but I could care less. After dinner, the fire pit was lighted and we were able to roast marshmallows to make s'mores. One of the boys started playing "Stacy's Mom" by Fountains of Wayne. Everyone sang along and I just awkwardly sat there because I didn't know that song at the time (about a year ago). Ryan noticed and we had a long dispute if it was socially acceptable or not for me to not know that song. Things got even more awkward when Ryan's beanie fell off his head and a condom was in it. I don't think he knew it was in there because he made eye contact with one of the guys there and punched him in the arm. Me being me got really flustered and luckily you couldn't see me blushing since the only light outside was the fire. After that I barely saw him except with the occasional greetings because I was close friends with one of his best friends. Skip to a year later (which is now), I had English class with Ryan. Again, barely any small interactions between us. It wasn't until the end of the year that I got his number from a mutual friend of ours to ask him for advice. A mutual guy friend keeps bothering me and touching me AND he has a girlfriend who he wants me to meet in the city. After that talk, I guess we're friends? We would have Snapchat conversations late at night (he would always fall asleep first) sometimes and during finals week we would sometimes have study sessions with friends over Skype. I know for sure that both of them are EXTREMELY out of my league, but a girl can dream.

I hate crushes.

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<3 The Little Fangirl

Asking Questions then Leaving - What's The Point?!?

Song of the Post: Mrs. All American
     artist: 5 Seconds Of Summer
     album: 5 Seconds Of Summer Target Exclusive (American version)

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Salutations fellow internet people!
So I don't know if this was just me who thinks this is absurd, but what makes people think that it's okay to ask someone a question then walk away? ......What????
Not too long ago, I was sitting outside reading Girl Online by Zoe Sugg (it's a great book, check it out) waiting for my mom to come pick me up, and then one of my friends approached me. She asked what I was reading, then asked what it was about. In the middle of my brief summary, she just walked away as if she never even asked. I was so baffled by what had just occurred that I just sat there and pondered life. Had I done something wrong to make her walk away? Is she mad at me? Do I look angry or upset? Was the book not interesting? 
I didn't know what to do in that situation! Do I call out to her? Do I follow her and keep talking about the book? There's not much you can do without being slightly annoying or rude, although what she did was rude, but that's not the point.....sorta. 

I guess what I'm trying to say is that when things like this happen, it makes me feel a bit unimportant and useless as a human being. It may seem a bit extreme to say that, but it's true. I like when people listen to what I have to say because it means that my opinion matters. It may not make the biggest difference, but at least someone's listening.

That was such an awkward note to end on, but I don't know how else to finish. I've had this in my drafts for the longest time but never really got to publish it :/ 

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<3 The Little Fangirl

Sharing Secrets w/ Friends - Good or Bad?

Song of the Post: Airplanes and Terminals
     artist: Andrew Garcia, Traphik & G Seven
     album: (They're Youtubers ☞ No album!)

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Salutations fellow internet people!
Also Happy Chinese New Year! It's the year of the Ram, so if you're turning 12, 24, 36, etc. then this is your year ☺ Typically those who celebrate will receive red envelopes containing money from their parents as a way to start the new year, and it's good luck to wear red.
Anyways...back to the topic. Sharing secrets with friends- is it a good or bad thing? 
Friendship is important, but secrets are very personal to each individual. When friends tell each other secrets, it creates a stronger bond. I know when someone tells me something private, I get all tingly inside because it's sort of a way of them telling you that you're trustworthy. It also makes each other feel important and special because you are exchanging private information about each other that is too personal to share with the world.
Sometimes, people who know these secrets think it's okay to almost mock your private business, but it's technically "not telling anyone." One of my closest guy friends, Ty, had recently found out that I used to like one of his friends, Brad, and sends me pictures of Brad whenever they're together saying "oh look who I'm with ;)" or "remember him? ;)" I trust Ty because we both have a little dirt on each other, but I kind of regret telling him about my past with Brad. I don't think he knows that his teasing makes me uncomfortable and that I wish I never told him in the first place. 
I think the worst is when you tell a friend a really deep secret and they judge you for it. It makes me question how/who I am that created such a strong reaction from a close friend. Is it wrong to like certain things? Is the world going to end if I have feelings toward a certain someone? Is there a specific guideline on how I should live my own life? "But it's not YOU." Okay. That's cool. I didn't know I wasn't allowed to like and appreciate certain things because it doesn't fit my image. 
Don't let anyone bring you down for exploring and expanding your variety of interests. It's your decision to choose whether you like something or not, not someone else's. If you decide to tell one friend a secret and not the other, that's okay. It's not like it's their business to share anyways. 
Have you ever wondered what happened to the secrets that you told people you're not friends with anymore? Are they going to tell anyone? Or do they just forget about them...? I know that when I'm told a secret, it stays with me because I respect people's privacy and so should they, but that's not always the case. Which brings up my next question.... Are you able to keep your mouth shut? If you expect others to keep your secrets, it's common sense to know that you should also zip your lips. If someone isn't comfortable telling you something, don't push it. Would you want the same thing to happen to you? It's all about reciprocating actions and emotions. "Treat others the way you want to be treated." 

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<3 The Little Fangirl