artist: Papa Roach
album: Avengers Assemble
This was my fifteenth journal entry in my actual physical journal. Yes, the names are already changed. I'm going to be posting the rest of my entries, then will start posting mainly on here.
This was when Iam was my 'relapse' I guess. I talk about eating problems and old friend issues. It's a bit depressing to read, so read at your own will.
December 9, 2014
I finally built up the courage to delete the message from Michelle, but it didn't get rid of the empty void tugging at my heart. It didn't clean up the mess that is myself. I've been binge eating and drinking huge amounts of junk food lately and I'm not proud. I'm not helping myself or anyone else. It makes Mom sad, causing her to yell at me, causing Dad to yell at me for firing Mom up, causing me to yell and discipline myself. I really shouldn't be eating so much. I'm already as fat as it gets. How am I slimming down by eating more? Why can't I get things right? I'm so done. I'm so empty.
That wasn't so bad o.o It was.....short. Feel free to leave any comments or suggestions below!
<3 The Little Fangirl
This was when I
December 9, 2014
I finally built up the courage to delete the message from Michelle, but it didn't get rid of the empty void tugging at my heart. It didn't clean up the mess that is myself. I've been binge eating and drinking huge amounts of junk food lately and I'm not proud. I'm not helping myself or anyone else. It makes Mom sad, causing her to yell at me, causing Dad to yell at me for firing Mom up, causing me to yell and discipline myself. I really shouldn't be eating so much. I'm already as fat as it gets. How am I slimming down by eating more? Why can't I get things right? I'm so done. I'm so empty.
That wasn't so bad o.o It was.....short. Feel free to leave any comments or suggestions below!
<3 The Little Fangirl
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