artist: Troye Sivan
album: TRXYE
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Salutations fellow internet people!
So if you've read my previous posts, you may be aware that I have self-image issues and I finally told my parents about it. Well....today was a game changer.
Most of the reasons why I'm so self-conscious are because of my parents. As their daughter, I want to be the best I can to make them happy and proud, even if that means suffering. I'm not happy, I'm not healthy, I have many issues with myself, and I told them about this, but they see it as a joke. Always telling me I should lose weight, to watch my figure, that they're embarrassed to be around me because I'm not feminine enough.
It hurts.
What kind of world do we live in today that it's okay to tell your children that they aren't good enough for you? It's okay for parents to degrade their children's appearance but God forbid children from expressing their opinion about their parents.
Today was yet another step back from where I started because my parents chose to laugh about my inability to find myself attractive.
Salutations fellow internet people!
So if you've read my previous posts, you may be aware that I have self-image issues and I finally told my parents about it. Well....today was a game changer.
Most of the reasons why I'm so self-conscious are because of my parents. As their daughter, I want to be the best I can to make them happy and proud, even if that means suffering. I'm not happy, I'm not healthy, I have many issues with myself, and I told them about this, but they see it as a joke. Always telling me I should lose weight, to watch my figure, that they're embarrassed to be around me because I'm not feminine enough.
It hurts.
What kind of world do we live in today that it's okay to tell your children that they aren't good enough for you? It's okay for parents to degrade their children's appearance but God forbid children from expressing their opinion about their parents.
Today was yet another step back from where I started because my parents chose to laugh about my inability to find myself attractive.
**walking with parents in parking lot toward designated store**
**wearing cardigan over tank top b/c not comfortable showing arms**
Mother: Take off that stupid jacket it's hot out!
Me: I'm okay, I'm just cold because it's breezy out.
Mother: You know your legs are getting pretty big. You should really start dieting.
**covers body, looks at feet, starts walking faster to avoid contact with parents**
Mother: **sing-song voice** Come back my beautiful daughter who hates their mother!
Father: I bet she doesn't think she's beautiful.
**both parents laughing**
Yeah. That actually happened.
They very well know that I don't think I'm pretty and I have body issues, but they also had to joke about me hating my mother. Then, they expect me to be okay with this?!? Under what circumstance is this appropriate for parents to do to their kids? Please, enlighten me.
I'm so sick of their behavior and they wonder why I insulate myself in my room. I'm usually used to my parents making fun of me, but I thought that after they read the letter, things would be different. Boy was I wrong. I think after they read it, it gives them more of a reason to mock me because they know it'll get to me.
Am I the only one that has to deal with this?
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