Is it More Than a Crush?

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     artist: Nick Jonas 
     album: Nick Jonas (self-titled album)

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Salutations fellow internet people!
It wasn't until I came across a tumblr post, the kind that has different personality traits for the different zodiac signs, that I realized I tend to day dream about people I think are attractive.
NOW BEFORE YOU LEAVE OR THINK I'M WEIRD JUST PLEASE LET ME EXPLAIN!
My zodiac thing said that I tend to rant about my day/feelings online -_- **cough cough WHAT I'M DOING RIGHT NOW** and that I make up cute love stories in my head...... Although scarily accurate, I still love those types of posts because it points out the little things about me that even I don't notice about myself.
Do you also make up cute love stories in your head or is it just me?
I tend to think about these "fantasies" whenever I'm bored or right as I'm about to fall asleep **nervous chuckle** And no these are not sexual fantasies, they go no further than cutesy, fluffy kissing and cuddling. (The fact that I'm flustered just writing about this is embarrassing)
At the young age that I am now (16), I still have some trouble telling the difference between a crush, liking someone, and just thinking someone is attractive. Some times it'll be obvious, some times I'll be stuck debating the issue for days. I don't know....is it possible to have multiple crushes?
If so, then lemme just count how many I could possibly have right now:

1. The boy in my friend group
2. The boy in my English class
3. The boy in my church group
4. The boy who sits in the same lunch room as me 

That's surprisingly a lot less than I thought there would be O.o But that's probably because I left out musicians ;) To me, a crush is not only do you find them attractive, but you can imagine a romantic relationship with them. That's one of the reasons why I'm so confused about my feelings, but also because I get a little jealous when I see other girls talking to them. 

And it's weird because I legit dream about them taking me on dates and being all cheesy-romantic and cute and uggghh the feels!!!! I'm sure I'm not the only one that has this problem....right?

I think the main components that happen in pretty much every 'dream' is:

1. They wink at some point (my weakness. it legit makes me squirmy when someone winks)
2. They like to hug me from behind
3. They give me piggy back rides
4. (this is one that I just squeal about even when I'm only thinking about it...maybe because I've never experienced this before) they kiss me **hiding face while intensely blushing**

The way that the kiss happens is usually the same too! The boy pulls me into him by my waist with one arm then kisses me while holding my cheek with his other hand.

 If you could see me right now, I'm hiding under my blankets and covering my face with my hair because my stomach is in knots I WANT A RELATIONSHIP SO BADLY! But i'm in a pickle because I want a relationship but I'm not ready for one, if that even makes sense. I'd be too afraid to make the wrong move or seem too clingy that I would just screw up the relationship from trying to be the perfect girl for that significant other. Plus, I'm the worst person to have one on one conversations with because I tend to overthink what I'm going to say so I don't embarrass you or myself, causing many long awkward pauses. People who can effortlessly keep conversations going with anyone.... HOW?!?! PLEASE TEACH ME YOUR WAYS OF SOCIALIZING! 

So....is it a more than a crush? Is it possible to have more than one crush?

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<3 The Little Fangirl